Ways of Talking
By Ha Jin
We used to like talking about grief
Our journals and letters were packed
with losses, complaints, and sorrows.
Even if there was no grief
we wouldn’t stop lamenting
as though longing for the charm
of a distressed face.
Then we couldn’t help expressing grief
So many things descended without warning:
labor wasted, loves lost, houses gone,
marriages broken, friends estranged,
ambitions worn away by immediate needs.
Words lined up in our throats
for a good whining.
Grief seemed like an endless river—
the only immortal flow of life.
After losing a land and then giving up a tongue,
we stopped talking of grief
Smiles began to brighten our faces.
We laugh a lot, at our own mess.
Things become beautiful,
even hailstones in the strawberry fields.
This poem is about two individuals who used to talk about their grief with one another. It describes some of the topics they discussed. Even when grief wasn’t felt they would talk somberly as if they enjoyed being depressed and continue to complain. When they ran out of describing their current conflict they would continue on to the next complaint, and on, and on. They just kept talking and more came to mind endlessly like no matter what something was wrong. This brought the two closer and bonded them. I think “After losing land and the giving up a tongue” with the following content means that after talking about so much grief and sharing it together, the space between these two individuals was closed and they got together. The connection they felt brought them happiness, brightening their world and “Things became beautiful,” even the grief. When I read this I actually found it weird the first time around. When I hear the word ‘grief’ I think of sadness. I think of pain. The way the speaker writes is as if grief is a good thing. I found it very awkward because grief is a powerful word and it is a word I don’t like to think of. The author writes, ‘Even if there was no grief
we wouldn’t stop lamenting,’ and ‘Then we couldn’t help expressing grief,’ it was as if grief was the only word they knew. It was the only thing on their mind even when there was nothing wrong. They just could not get past feeling bad. I love the ending the best. I like when the things became beautiful to them and they finally stopped talking about grief and realized there is more to life.